hi! im sorry for the non-updated-blog-post. ive been very busy since school started. no. what i meant was, i get easily tired since school started. lol. its been like what? 2 months? i only updated my blog once a month so i think im going to keep it that way.
lets get u a quick update with what i did before this.
south korea.
celebrated my new year @ seoul, south korea for 6 days. tried playing ski-ing, drinking coffee all da time, taking trains thru subways, talking with strangers with different languages and felt the cold under the 3 layer of clothes (it looks like i prefer cold than hot weather) u see, i really enjoyed my holidays there. im a quick learner therefore i know how to use the train easily without my parents' guide. they dont even hesitated to say "u can go to seoul again next time with ain" when they knew about it. korean people are really friendly IF you know how to speak korean. yeah really. because i once, tried to speak to an old woma and u know what she said "aniyo, no!! no!!!!!" then she ran. i was left awkward with people around me looking at me. that was like le most awkward moment i ever encountered of. hahaha.
next; spm.
it seems like just yesterday i was talking about taking pmr. you know those people who says "form 4 is an honeymoon year so just relax" and those people who says "form 4 isn't an honeymoon year, you should never ever enjoy form 4's year." NEVER EVER TAKE AN ADVICE FROM THE FIRST PERSON or you'll be ruined. just. like. me. i dont even know anything about what we learned in form 4. i didnt come to school like 40+ days. so yeah, fuck u whoever says that we shouldnt study. okay maybe i shouldnt blame those people because its my fault too. huwaaaa. i dont even have the time to catch up with my form 4's studies when im too busy doing form 5's. i fucking hate physics. i feel like i want to drop it and take bi's literature but then what if i want to become an engineer and i dont hv the credibilites? T_T i hope i can cover everything before trial. amin!
love.
i have a boyfriend. i feel like the happiest girl ever whenever im with him. hes like the best. he always treat me right no matter what the situation is. i dont even expect him to be this sweet but oh God, what did i miss. my best friend is my boyfriend. my boyfriend is my best friend. he used to be my super best friend for 2 years, and those years, he likes me secretly. can u imagine that?! he never liked anyone, he liked me when we were 15 year old (2013) and the crush continues until he had the courage to ask me to be his girlfriend on 25th january 2015. yay! the thing that makes me a lil bit sad is i told him everything about boys i used to love & like, when he LOVES me those times. i mean like, can u feel him? when your crush talking about his/her crush??? im sorry. you are the best. please dont leave me. you are the only one who actually listens, the one whos always there for me and i dont need no guy best friend because you are my best friend. also my boyfriend. u can be both! u won my heart so u deserve the award for being both. i love you hazim, did i tell u that you are the best?
myself.
what to talk about myself? im still the same me. except that im happier. i actually think odd years are my lucky year. u can say that ive the best luck on 2013, and im hoping for 2015 too. so far, my life had been great. i handle things more patiently. and i pushed all the negatives but sometimes i just cant help but wanting to take a rest for a week. my numb feeling is still there, crawling to get thru my brain and my heart but i built walls around it so they couldnt pass thru hahaha fuck u.
i think thats everything. so i will update next month. thanks for reading!
