so ive read some of my previous posts, and u mightve wonder why did i sound so cold in every post? i want to state here that im not like this in person. at all. i may be awkward to strangers and not-so-closed friends just because im very shy. i dont have the courage to be friendly and absolutely not a good talker. listening is what i prefered. always. but tbh, at new places, id be more friendly than ever. i dont even know why. probably because people dont know me so they cant judge me.
judging. thats what im afraid most. ive been thru alot these past years and it gets scarier when words can damaged u in some ways. i dont want to be judged and im trying not to judge others. to see where i came from, i came stronger. and u can say that im not like the old me. where the old me was so depressing and pathetic. overthink. pessimist. all that were me.
im 18. i should act how to be independent. im going to meet alot of people in a couple of months where ive to live with them and learn from then. adapt to the new enviroment. i cant wait. :)
good night.
